Everything changes when you change

 Roughly two months ago I was living a very big struggle with my life. I hated it. 

I was comparing myself with everyone online and I absolutely hated everything on my routine. My routine was not bad, it was just the same as it is today, maybe even better. I was working, going to the gym, doing pilates a few days, taking care of my body, my relationships were good. But for some reason it was not enough. I wasn’t happy. 

Then I decided I wanted to spend some time off. I decided to start a digital detox. At least reduce the number of hours I had been spending online. I deleted the social media apps during the day and would install for a few minutes at night or on my commute back home. 

At first I noticed the withdrawal symptoms, like taking my phone a few times during the day to check social media. Even when I did not have the apps. I would automatically lock the screen again. I did that for a few days, maybe a week. Then my brain started to process it. The second week was a bit better, I wouldn’t grab my phone as much. I started paying more attention to my daily tasks, being more present. It’s been a bit more than a month now. I can say it’s been challenging everyday, I fight the urge to delete some days. Some days I do not delete. I feel that these days are the days where I am the least joyful. I have noticed that I am not the happiest when I am doing the wildest things, I am the most content when I am the most present. When I am living my own life. When I devote all my attention to whatever is in front of me. Maybe you are also not feeling good with your life. Maybe you are also chronically online. Maybe you also found excuses to stay another minute on social media. Maybe it has not been something that induces positive thoughts for you. 

If that’s the case, maybe you should give it a try and live your flawed life with passion and 100% presence. 

I hope you feel better ❤️‍🩹